ORDINARY

Ordinary
On the outside I may seem strong
Never scared
Never hurt
But on the inside
I’m full of doubts
Worries
Fear
And
Hurt, from the way you treat others

On the surface I may seem happy
But deep within I am saddened
By the way you talk about me
The words you use
And how you describe my family
On the outside I am confident
But underneath I am scared
Scared of the unknown
Scared of messing up
Scared of looking like a fool
Scared of never being accepted
Accepted by you
By this world

Some times I feel like I am
On the other side of a window
Looking in
But never receiving

On the surface I may look like you
With my hair straightened
And make up done
With my en-expensive wardrobe
And my fairly white teeth
Brown hair, brown eyes
But within I’m nowhere near like you
I care about my body
And what I do with it
I use my words for build-ups
Not knock-you-downs

On the surface I may seem ordinary
Plain
Dull
Nothing new
But that’s all that you see.
That’s not me.
Underneath; as I peel off the layers
Like coming in from the cold
I begin to show you who I am
Make it clear to you
That I am not
Nor will I ever be
ORDINARY!
I am ME