Across The Sea

( For my Aussie Sis, Taylah!!!!! )


The ocean is a wall.


A wall that blocks our way


A puddle that never dries


That makes tears


Swell in our eyes





The only thing keeping


You from me





If I could I’d cross the sea


To see your face


Smiling at me


To hug you tightly; never letting go


Just so you know


The ocean is keeping us away


From hanging everyday


From doin’ what girls do best


Which we know


Better than the rest





When we finally break through the wall


We can “Whip our Hair”


Do what we want


With out any care





Cause babes you are mine


My best friend


The one I lean upon


The one I need to hear


The one that makes me want to shed every little tear


The one who keeps me going


When the going gets rough


The one who never stops listenin’


And I know I can trust





We hold each others metaphorical hands


As we walk this journey; Life.


That’s what we will see when we cross the Sea!





I love you BELOVED! <3

ORDINARY

Ordinary
On the outside I may seem strong
Never scared
Never hurt
But on the inside
I’m full of doubts
Worries
Fear
And
Hurt, from the way you treat others

On the surface I may seem happy
But deep within I am saddened
By the way you talk about me
The words you use
And how you describe my family
On the outside I am confident
But underneath I am scared
Scared of the unknown
Scared of messing up
Scared of looking like a fool
Scared of never being accepted
Accepted by you
By this world

Some times I feel like I am
On the other side of a window
Looking in
But never receiving

On the surface I may look like you
With my hair straightened
And make up done
With my en-expensive wardrobe
And my fairly white teeth
Brown hair, brown eyes
But within I’m nowhere near like you
I care about my body
And what I do with it
I use my words for build-ups
Not knock-you-downs

On the surface I may seem ordinary
Plain
Dull
Nothing new
But that’s all that you see.
That’s not me.
Underneath; as I peel off the layers
Like coming in from the cold
I begin to show you who I am
Make it clear to you
That I am not
Nor will I ever be
ORDINARY!
I am ME

I Am A Diary..

I Am a Diary
I am a diary
Open for you to come to.
Ready for you
For you to write secrets in
For you to open up to
For you to trust.
I will never tell.
Always keep a secret;
Secret.
You can write in me
And confide your deepest secrets in me.
I will never lie to you
Reveal yourself to me
And I will to you.
Keep me by your side
When you need me
I'll be there
Pour your dreams into me
Your doubts
Your fears
Your worries
Your hopes
I'm the one here for you
When everyone else leaves
When you need a way out
A way to get away from your life
To spill your greatest secrets into.
Your past lovers
Your future dreams
Your day to day crushes.
I'm the one you can count on.
I am a diary

Mommy, I love you.

When I grow up
Will I be able to be like you?
Will I be able to listen?
Can I pretend to be you, mommy?
Can I bring my babies to school,
To show-off to my friends,
Can I curl my hair like you mommy,
And wear make up too?
Mommy, I know
To you time flew by,
But mommy, it went slow.
Mommy I remember the days I sat with you.
The times you sang us all to sleep.
Mommy, I want to thank you, daddy and God
For blessing me with my many siblings.
The kids I could play with,
But mommy I know you will be sad.
When it's time for us to fly,
Fly away from the nest like the baby birdies.
I know half your heart will tear in half
When Brother goes in a few years,
And each of us to fly soon after.
But mommy its okay,
I won't go far, and I'll stay by you forever.
Because, mommy, no matter how many times
We fight or I disobey
I know YOU will stay
My best friend forever
Mommy Can I tell you something?
Can I tell you a secret?
I love you.

Love your Daughter.

Stand Up

I've been pushed
Pushed by my grandparents
Pushed by my brother
Pushed by my peers
Pushed by this world
Pushed to love
Pushed to fit in
Pushed to be perfect
Pushed to change

But let me say
Each and every day
People try to change me
They try to tell me
who I AM
Sure, because you know.

You say you know everything about me
You know my name
My family
My life
My home
My values
My religion

But you don't
You didn't know my name
Until I told you
You didn't know my family
Filled with my six siblings
And my parents never ending love
Until you met them.
You didn't know my life
Until you were a part of it
You didn't know my home
Until you walked the streets with me
You didn't know, and probably won't ever know my values
What I value in myself
In others
What I value, until you get to know me
You didn't know my religion
Until you pointed and laughed
Until you LISTENED

So call me what you want
"Worthless"
"Ugly"
"Dirt"
"Fat"
"Loser"
"Not good enough"
"Unfashionable"
"Nothing"

But your words won't stop me
From fighting
Fighting for what I believe is right
Standing up for my family
My friends
And Myself
I'll never give up
And never give in
To this world
I will stay
ME!!!